Dead and hollow battery

Episode 21:

Well well, I'm back! Last week I went to KL for fun. Stayed at my friend's university hostel & we went to lots of shopping malls. It was a great trip. Unfortunately I did not buy much things, just a wacky eye wear and a key chain.

I am so busy with my assignments recently until did not update my blog. There's a presentation last Thursday & I'm quite satisfied about it but I know I can do much better than that. It was a group presentation. We do not rehearse at all & just go out & do our presentation like that, so it was not fluent enough. What I cannot stand is the lecturer was too exaggerated. She kept on praising the 'CEO' for doing a good job. Ugh, for me it was just ok. I'm not prejudice about him, maybe is because I know I can do better than him & a bit disappointed that I'm not able to portray it. From now on I am going to fight until I'm satisfy with the result. I know it will be hectic but when I have to fight if its not now? Do as much as I capable!

I thought I will be happier after the trip but I was wrong. I became busier & sometimes I feel like I'm not as strong as I thought. I still get distracted and pessimist sometimes. I started to asked myself, where is my direction. I've lost. Whatever it is I'll pretend I'm ok & live the life!

I better start shining. Give me a charger!! XOXO GGFF.

SPF 130

Episode 20:

It's been very busy the past few days. Yesterday I was elected to be the person that incharged the BEC club's Info Department. I do not even know why I was elected. After the class I rushed back home to have dinner then rushed to Queensbay Borders bookshop with my friend to find some books for points and informations for my group assignment.

Yesterday my class had a short presentation on what product we wanted to sell and how. There was a group(PH & NR were the group members) that wanted to sell cosmetics and the presentator said that their product will have SPF 130! Since when there was another sun exist? PH was laughing at her. Well I think she mis-said that but I really do need that product.

I am going to KL this Friday & as usual my mom was being negative. Oh why are you going to the university, it's close on holiday ; oh why are you wasting money, the economic was under recession ; oh why don't you go and work because you seems very free on the weekends, always went to ft bla bla bla.......... Can you STOP? Why can't she just show some support? Why she likes to be a fun sucker? Was that her nature? I think I'll in big trouble on Dec 19 and 25.

I'm willing to let you go if that is what it takes to get you back. I love this quote from Rufus. Sometimes teenager need someone besides their family to talked to. This was from Lilly. Let go of me mom, I'm not your sweet little baby boy anymore. I'm 20 already! On that moment, I wish both of them were my parents or at least they have their qualities.

Well the SPF that I mentioned stand for Sadness Protection Factor not Sun. I wonder whether 130 enough for me.

Looks like sadness hit me up again. Has someone invented the precious SPF 130 for me? I'm desperate. XOXO GGFF

Unexpected

Episode 19:

It's been so hard when you realize that you are not as perfect as you think. Or I should say as good as you think because no one is perfect? Well I started to believe that the perfect one do exist just that it is rare. I found it, and my self esteem crush! She was right, sometimes surprise sneak up on you when you least expecting it. Feels like I have lost direction in sudden. It's hard to accept that I am not good enough because it's scary. Can I survive in this realistic world of today without being perfect? Am I seems paranoid? I'm just worried because the fact that I believe in had became a fiction! Should I push myself harder or be who I am right now? I do not know.

Leona Lewis will be releasing her second album on 17-11-08(if not mistaken). Here's her single 'Forgive me'. The music video cannot be embed, so if you want to see the music video just go & search on YouTube.



Forgive me for being imperfect. At least I have confident. Should I say I'm perfect because I'm imperfect? XOXO GGFF

Shock the heart out

Episode 18:

Today can be described as my worst day ever! I never felt so negative and unsatisfied with someones and somethings.

I will concluded that today's class was the funniest class I have ever attended in my life! You know what our class did? We went Gurney SHOPPING with our lecturer to buy the story books for the orphans that we will be visiting on 25th of Nov! That was our lecturer's idea. I should be happy because get to go shopping right? Sadly, I don't! I think it is time for me to change my thought that college was not just study in class all the time. Maybe that will make me feel better.

I really cannot stand my classmates! They decided things without informing the class. They just went straight to the lecturer! It seems like they are acting in front of the lecturer behind our back! They showed to the lecturer that they care about the project & put in a lot of effort but only we know what are beneath all the lies. A bunch of fakers! Thank God I'm not the one that is been categorize into the 'non contribute' member but I do not know what they have told the lecturer. I believe that they told the truth. I do not hate them, just that I disagree on the way they handling things. They just find their own friends & discuss about the plans by themselves without updating us or at least tell us what are the next plan. It is unfair for us. We work as team so please show some respect ok!

Spotted: The girl that I accidentally stepped on her feet yesterday was entering the lobby behind her bf.

We were on the same elevator again but this time I do not step on her. What a coincident! I still did not apologize to her. There goes my reputation.

Discovered: PH was a Taiwanese! She immigrate to Penang when she was five. No wonder her slang was a bit different & very fair. She was a funny girl.

My dad called me around 10:30am when I was waiting them to settle their things before depart to Gurney. He told me that he has bought me my lunch and wanted me to went downstairs to take. My Jesus! What's wrong with you dad! Don't you know that I'm in morning class every Tuesday! Don't yelled at me saying that I should told you not to buy me lunch! At night only my mom scold my dad for not listened to what she said to him in the morning before he went to work. My mom has told him that I'm in morning class on this morning. I'm speechless! Sometimes I asked myself, do they care about me? I do not care what is their answer at all. I am numb. They just don't change. Still treat me the way that they treated by my grandparents.

Discovered: LY will be going to Sarawak for vacation on May 2009 for a week! Good for you.

All that won't kill me. It just make me stronger. XOXO GGFF

2 late?

Episode 17:

Today I accidentally stepped on a girl's feet in elevator without realized it. I know that I am stepping something but just a second. I was not very sure at first & at that moment her bf asked her whether I have stepped on her feet & she nod her head. I looked towards the guy pretended that I do not understand chinese. That was embarrass!

Announcement: Sorry for stepping on your feet. I hope I do not break your toe or dirtied your white high heels. I think it is not too late to apologize.

Could you forgive me? XOXO GGFF

Another way to what?

Episode 16:

Today I heard a song by Alicia Keys & Jack White called 'Another Way To Die' which is the ost of '007 Quantum of Solace'. Omg that was horrible! Do not suit the movie at all and I do not know any single word they sang. The music got me headache! Song was bad but the music video was quite awesome. The design was outstanding though. I have not watch the movie & not going to because that is not my genre. Mr James was too perfect until it seems fake to me.

Ahh... the week I'm waiting. The latest episode of ANTM. This week they need to take two photos. One is natural look with simple pose & another one with makeup on, high fashion pose. Here's the photos from best to worst:
Samantha


Analeigh


McKey


Marjorie


Elina


Elina was eliminated due to her stiffness. Finally she was gone! Yeah!! She should have gone last week.

Till then. XOXO GGFF

Overloaded!!!

Episode 15:

There are butter cakes to be sale today. We sold it RM1 per piece & a jelly for free. The leader told me to arrive on 11am but the cakes reached on 12:30pm! They do things without synchronization at all! I gave 2 jellies to Ms Curley.

Finally I get the username & password to excess to the Sunderland website where I can find a lot of information through their e-library. I tried to search but it is quite complicated and confusing. Need some times to explore it. Today was also my first time to step in the resource centre. After so long.... Lol!

Horrible! I have 3 assignments in my hands right now! My mind really not in a good condition today. Cannot think effectively. The Marketing assignment was killing! I believe I can do it after I have a sufficient rest.

Need a boost babe. XOXO GGFF

Prom = Prob ?

Episode 14:

Its such a long day for me. Reached college on 8:05am & went to Jusco & Tesco to delivered the official sponsorship letter with two others classmates. It was BORING because we did not chat much! We finished on 11:30pm & went to hawker stall besides Segi to have our lunch on 12:30pm.

Some of my classmates were anxious & have no idea on what to wear for the prom this Friday. They were having a tight budget. The theme of our prom was 'East meets West' which means they have to decide whether they want to dress up western style or eastern style. Thank God the ticket had been sold out.

Spotted: Lawrence name has been erased from the prom king nomination list. What happen poor thing?

Why must student went to prom? What is the purpose? To be in the centre of attraction? I really do not get it. For me, prom is just for those rich, good looking & standard body shaped people to attend. I am too sophisticated for that. Lol!

Where is my ultimate prom queen? Hope you will find yours. XOXO GGFF

Hit it!

Episode 13:

I was so tired today but full of joy. I have morning class today & the whole class went for donation to all the classes under Ms Sharon for our charity project. It was really fun & the response was tremendous! It was really out of my expectation. Ms Sharon has the biggest effort because she was the one that talked to each class & described about our project. All we do were holding the donation box & asked for donation.

The donation ends around 11am & we proceed to cake sale on 3rd floor. The response was good at first but after it decreased after the lunch time. We were bad luck today because all the head of departments were having meeting for the next year's budget so most of the 'big client' were not available. Luckily a lecturer told me that they most possibly will end their meeting after 7pm if not I would not know I have to stay until when! We have hit our target in one day. Not bad!
Our cake that for sale!

Spotted: McDonalds delivery! Two big plastics full of foods! Unfortunately were not for me.

The delivery man walk passed our booth & straight into the meeting room. I was completely shocked! I was telling myself that we may end the cake sales. I stayed until 4pm! I'll be going to college on 8.15am & depart to Jusco & Tesco to give the official sponsorship letter. After that got meeting & class on noon.

Thank you ZR & Kenji for the donation!

Jump to bed. XOXO GGFF

Frustrated!!

Episode 12:

'Scream'................

Today is Marketing quiz day & I was very disappointed with my performance! That quiz cost 10% in the course work marks & congratulation that I mess it up! I can't even look or think
about how many marks I could get. The quiz was suppose to be an essay but I only wrote a few
lines, not even half! What is going on with me?! I really have no idea what to write on that time.
Just manage to came out a few points. The class was like a market, everyone was chit chatting
like no one else were in the room. I was distracted. The question was totally out of my expectation. Here's how it goes: Based on the current economic situation, describe which
Strategic Business Orientation you'll used for secure a job. Discuss. Of course I know the 4 SBO
but it's totally a different aspect! The SBO were for describing the strategies use for marketing
products not people and the question wanted us to treat ourselves as a product. I was writing
about product at first but later someone mentioned the question then only I knew I was out of
title. At that moment onwards, I was kindda blank. Think out of the box GGFF! Flawless now
became a flaw. I better nailed on my presentation! It consists of 50% and was on 1st of Dec.
There was other tougher assignment to work on after the presentation which I think I should
probably be preparing the structure and points asap! I want a compact brain!

Cry to bed... XOXO GGFF

Scary lunatic!

Episode 11:

Hello world. Sunny day but the things that happen around me were the opposite.

Heard: A big crash!

I dash out to my balcony to see what's happening. I thought it must be an accident but it is not. It is more shocking than an accident. A lady throwing a wood chair from 6th floor through her balcony! There was neither a fight between spouse nor drunk. I think she looks more like a psychiatric. She was throwing things from the balcony & danced around. The security guard called the police but not success in arresting her because she refused to open the door. My mom was so into the incident until she kept on walked out the balcony and watch the progression. You are not a reporter mom!

At night, the sewer of my house was overflowed! Can you imagine the smell? Fortunately was not severe. My parents took care of it. I have to waited until everything settled then only pee.

I watched Super Idol, a Taiwan singing competition on the evening & I was touched by the background of a contestant. She been abandoned by her mother when she was 3 with her younger brother & younger sister. She do not understand why her mother did that but she forgive her. It was so emotional. The song was dedicated to her mom and the title of the song was 'Want to have a home'.



There were others who touches me as well but she was the deepest. I can feel her spirit.

Do not give up no matter what. XOXO GGFF